Eerie 'Anne

Everybody missed being young and carefree, don't we ? And it slapped me hard knowing that i'm turning twenty.

Like a broken record, i kept chanting, "I don't wanna grow up. I don't wanna grow up. I don't wanna grow up...." Oh wells....

If it's not obvious enough, yes my hair had been behaving well ! And if it's still not obvious (which i bet it is) i'm alil too vain. Hehehe.

So anyway ! As i bask in the morning air surrounding my room, i took a deep breath. And it dawned upon me that i'd never taken a minute (or a second, even) thanking Him, for i'm awake to another day. I'm always too busy cursing at the puddle for staining my heels, complaining about being fat and ugly. Ranting about how tedious life's getting and swearing at the forever racing time. Not to forget, thinking of suicidal whenever things go wrong. I shamely admit, that i'd never taught myself to feel contented.

Can you imagine how horrible i really am? Hmm. But I stumbled upon my own thoughts, that i should really take a break. Flip this living daylight over, and start appreciating its beauty. There are alot more to life than just the typical bullcraps that eventually eat up your tiny brains and heart. Life's not supposed to be so bad, aye? Life's too short to be taken granted for, isn't it?

And i think, what the world needs, is a group hug. So come on, *HUGSS* for each and everyone of you beautiful soul (:

Everything is so..uhmm (i really couldn't find the right word)

But i'd grown numb. I remember vividly, i've had this before. This whole thing here is not even a bit foreign to me. I'm quite frightened how people are obviously taking full advantage of one another. To be witnessing how everyone has gotten hooked onto this sinking loop, i found myself completely speechless.

Exploiting one's weakness for the greater good of yourself, how selfish ? And it whacked me hard that maybe i'm really not good with this thing. But despite, I tried to play my part right. Yet i'm causing nothing close to happiness. I must've been a total big dissapointment, no ?

"Cause there'll be no Sunlight if i lose you Baby.." -and this, is just another meaningless line.